2 Dismissing the mind
The
mind will defend different options with equal pertinence if it analyzes the
diagram of the Mysteries with its lofty inquisitorial spirit, with the stupid
aim of examining it from all angles. “There is no consciousness of self if
there is discontinuity, therefore the permanent self takes the upper hand over
the other three fields. The first Mystery is the most important”. It will
be proud of its analysis. Then it will change its mind and will contradict
itself impatiently, proud to have found a new perspective: “That’s not
right, everything begins with the body, with the journey from baby to old man,
and that is the fundamental reality – emotional discourse and the sensations.
Experience forms the basis of the human being. Mystery number 3 wins.” Satisfied,
it will place number three at the front, but then as it continues on its way it
will shout: “I’m such a fool! It is time which gives birth to everything so
it is the fundamental mystery and earns first place” . Finally, after analyzing
the infinite possibilities of field three, it will proclaim after hours of
prevarication: “Let me see now, of course, it is the Divine which is the
origin of all things obviously, or in its absence that intelligence which is
constantly organizing itself for the better, which assembles and consciousness
while pervading it with enormous energy.” Then it will pace around again
only to come back with new arguments for what could establish the definitive pre-eminence
of one field, on the pretext that, all things considered, “they are
virtually equal.” Let’s leave him to hold forth on the subject. Let us get
back to the issue of the dynamic of the method and abandon his plan.
Let’s
avoid the issue of pre-eminence, since in practice we will inflict a wound on
ourselves which is harmful to the “lower” mysteries in relation to the “higher”
mysteries and which would pervert the practice of cardinal meditation from the
outset and poison with duality the very method which is deemed to liberate
us from it. Quantum meditation accepts wholesale all the thoughts,
emotions, dross, fantasies, insights, memories, impulses of hatred, lust and
anger - i.e. all our psychological content - without any mark sheet which would
award good marks to some and black marks to others. The self is happy to
receive all this material and to sort it straightaway without following any
procedure based on a model, morality or teaching - i.e. a bias. The
emotions which then occur in the self are liberating and if it is true that
realizations can sometimes appear “harsh”, the flavour of conscious emotions
differs from that of instinctive emotions. Conscious emotions are physical
impulses which accompany flashes or insights into oneself, blinding
illuminations into matter in transformation, appropriations to drop, errors
committed or disappointments inflicted, which liberate new energies which we
shall term “resolutory”. Forgiveness is one such example, or forgiving oneself,
which is a radiant emotion, sometimes accompanied by physical manifestations
such as tears, rapid breathing, etc.
Wrong
turns which occur along the way are merely viewed as stumbles on an objective
and distant path and in this way there is no need for guilt in order to get
back on track and find one’s route again, or it may manifest itself and then
dissolve with conscious emotion. The concept of error is in fact a wonderful
thing, because something which has been accomplished without any benefit can be
seen as sterile or harmful, thus opening up the path to other strategies,
thoughts, intellectual routes and of course to diverting harmful consequences.
When the self is truly present, there is no reason to keep making the same
mistakes. The subject becomes attentive to the quality of all its initiatives
based on new approaches, in the knowledge that there is naturally scope for
error on a trail that has not yet been blazed. The material nature of the
fourth field is accepted and we know that the present is the sovereign of
opportunities and accidents. It deals out what appears to be favourable or
unfavourable according to its whim in the huge field of intermingled
circumstances. The ludicrous idea of trying to incorporate all events into one’s
own overall strategy, which is the final fantasy of the mind, is abandoned as a
childish superstition. Mistakes are acknowledged with good grace, as in any
other apprenticeship, corrected without resentment and accepted without any
sense of drama if they cannot be avoided.
It
is peculiar to individuals who practise meditation to enjoy discovering their
mistakes. Now that they live in the pure present, admitting to a mistake is no
longer humiliating because it is in the past, an area of the self which has
already been abandoned, and bringing it to light opens up a better path. Making
mistakes is necessary, firstly because the subject is so small compared to all
the categories of the non-self which surround him that he cannot constantly
watch all fronts at once and conform perfectly to everything come what may.
Secondly, it is always difficult to make decisions based on the unified self.
The historic subject (3) can be opportunistic and commit the whole self to a
siding where surface interests dominate and drown the inner being. The historic
subject can be manipulated by fear, threats, gratification and interest.
Passion in the present (4) can on rare occasions mask certain character traits
and push the self blindly into a seductive but discontinuous dimension which
becomes heterogeneous and then dangerous, before finally forcing it to
backtrack. Sometimes the permanent self (1) turns in on itself, lacks the
piquancy of 4 and is wary of experience and refuses to become involved, which
is something which it might regret later if it is attached to its own image.
Sometimes so much work takes place in Mystery 2 that any decision to be made of
a contingent or material nature can seem unreal, out of place or even hostile.
This is a feeling which can lead to postponements which may or may not be wise.
Admitting
to our mistakes is simply a way of rediscovering our own direction when we have
lost it for whatever reason. Many things lead us to make mistakes and in the
West we have a tendency to think that they stem from lack of knowledge of
external data. In the East, by contrast, people recognize that if they make
mistakes it is because they do not know themselves sufficiently well to
avoid compromising themselves in heterogeneous situations. Cardinal
meditation welcomes observations on mistakes in everyday life and
relationship problems, but it also welcomes the theory that the facts in
question, external facts, were only able to occur because of a state of
mind which allowed them to. When a train comes off the tracks, this is an
accident, but it is caused by faulty points - an omission. Therefore, failures
in field 3 provide us with information on our own temperament which is too
slack or too tense, too forward-looking or too reserved in relation to the
requirements of our environment.
If
we consider ourselves to be students of the universe strangely confronted by a
self which we cannot escape, then at every instant our achievements and
failures provide us with information on the basic nature of what we are and
encourage us to vary our approach to things, to transform our territorial
consciousness, test our solar aspirations which we place unconditionally before
the Divine and to let our self-image die and be reborn in a glittering
present. This present is so pure that not one fragment of it is an extension of
the past and this is infallible for severing our beliefs, abolishing obsolete
representations of who we are and of what we want to achieve.
The
body can take longer than the self to free itself from pointless memories and
cardinal meditation can be an adjunct to all forms of exercise which enable the
physical body to free itself from the past. A huge repertoire of techniques is
currently available, but in every scenario the physical body being worked upon
must reach a significant state of rest to eliminate the toxins of memories.
Slow, conscious breathing from the stomach generally brings immediate relief
after all the emotional reactions which triggered a radical split from certain
structures and attachments from the past. Tears are liberating when they occur
spontaneously and it is not necessary to stifle them when they genuinely come
from the body. On the other hand, allowing a sequence of negative thoughts to
occur in which one goes round in circles until quasi-artificial tears are
summoned up is an old strategy from field 3, devoid of all intelligence, which
digs the ruts of the ego even deeper and consecrates vanity through
complacency.
What
meditation teaches us is precisely how to distinguish emotional discourse, which
is by definition plaintive, from the abstract vision of the problem which is
causing us to suffer and which has not let itself be caught up in the closed
monologue of complaining. It testifies faithfully like a stubborn animal at its
own biological level that a breaking point has been reached between the
self and the non-self. Inner suffering is divinely calculated to serve as an
alarm bell when we begin to drift towards an agreement where the self and the
non-self interweave and become confused. The emotion is so sincere that it
embarrasses most people because it is forced on them in order to break the bars
of the cage of ready-made representations and to shatter the mirror of
self-image which is often simply an idol. Accepting emotion, whether it terrifies
or delights us, allows us to respect the authority of the universe with regards
to us and to understand that it warns us permanently through this emotion of
the structures existing between ourselves and the whole which require
transformation, as well as between ourselves and what we think of ourselves,
now that our line of conduct has been called into question by inopportune
moods, excesses which suddenly orphan the self without any object on which to
project its need for security and without any internal or external force of
authority.
The
self changes its interpretation of things because it has nothing to defend and
no longer attempts to interpret anything. It is simply there, enduring the
whole manifestation without being fundamentally alien to it – a state which
only skilled physicists could establish using abstruse equations because it is
so difficult for the mind to grasp this status. However, if evolution moves
towards conscious complexity, we will eventually be able to make the materials
of our global being converge with the Supreme Being, who has instilled them
with his own Presence while separating them from each other - hence our
conflicting, material, spiritual horizontal, vertical, immediate and permanent
position. Every option is offered to us but for some mysterious reason we
reject them all. When they survey the issue, awakened ones are unanimous – if
we content ourselves with nature we will relish our tragedies and passions and
we will find happiness in the keen fight for existence which is intense and
multi-coloured, sanctioning violent impulses wholesale as if they were
legitimate as well as our justifiable hatred of peccadilloes. Our ambition,
which we cultivate religiously will, by contrast, survive all sorts of
meaningful failures and our inflexible and shadowy self-image will be fiercely
preserved. We will remain in a crude state of unity which can be compared to
the animal state and which comprises unbearable degrees of tension at irregular
intervals.
By
contrast the idea of turning inwards towards the centre of the self
offers the possibility of freeing ourselves from the dualities which block our
path – those fundamental dualities which we express in the transverse axes of
the Mysteries. The whole starting position will be abandoned then destroyed and
unity will be rebuilt on new criteria from the inside, which will give a new
status to perception of the senses. The permanent immediacy of field 4
is implacably opposed to the mysterious motionless unity within us which
we call ourselves and which has accompanied us since childhood and strives to
conjugate the verb “to be”. Consciousness of the physical body, the pressures
of survival in its environment and also its weakness and weight contrast with
the majesty of field 2, where the Divine gives the shape which suits him
directly to the intelligence, soul, chakras and the subliminal self through the
powerful ideal which he imposes on those who want to join him and who receive
the strength to love obstacles.
All
representations of life other than those which stem from our own experience in
the infinite adventure, here and now, are futile presuppositions and
subtle conditioning for dealing with the present according to a preconceived
frame of mind. Aspirations are sufficient to overcome abuses of power on the
part of the mind, which grasps the highest realities and kills them with the
limitations which it imposes on them. The will does not have to do anything at
all, other than aspire to be revealed by preventing the mind for as long as
possible from setting the rules, which it does by loading the dice, to avoid
being banished from its realm.
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